I’m scared. I found out today I could leave as soon as Friday for Chungju, South Korea. And all I can think about are the things I will miss.
Manfriend’s birthday, Ava’s chatter, family craziness, Ben’s homecoming, Manfriend. All the people I love, all the things I love are here. I’ve spent two weeks living on couches of friends and family and everytime I am struck by the realization that these people love me too. I love my life here and I’m terrified to leave it.
And maybe that’s why I’m leaving. I don’t remember ever feeling this at home anywhere in my life. Now I’m leaving. I’m terrified. But I want to go. I think I’m making a good choice for the future of my life and my career. I know I can’t control everything that happens in the course of the next year. I’m going to make the best of it.
I’ll miss so many birthdays, holidays and celebrations. I’ll miss my friends and family so much I’ll cry myself to sleep some nights. But I’ll also learn more about myself and the world than I could in any other way.
I love you. I miss you. Please stay in touch.
Because the internet is magic!